useless?unlucky?picky?

so far..ALL of the jobs that i've worked are all introduced to me by my frens or my sis's frens..i've never eva gotten a job which i tried to get from the newspapers...oh well,this is a recently(last week) i sent out a whole lot of resumes(to about 8-10 companys ads, from 2 days's recuit section) and only got 2 replies of which one wants a perm staff so that was a failure..the other, i though i had high chances cos i was so stupid/braindead(after i missed the bus stop and went all the way to Clementi when i was suppposed to go Bkt Batok Cresent, wasted abt 40 mins i think, and got blisters too, cos had to walk a long way back to take the bus abck to the right busstop) that i put $6/hr for expected salary and that will add up to about $960/mth if i work a 5D week..lol..and i thought the interveiwer that i m interested in what the company does..but later then i realise i really didn't have much confidence in my skills, when the person asked me if i could do this, do that, I was like "I think i can(my chinese language skills..i said i'm average cos i'm really weak at writing..), i'll try my best(for like invoice etcs..i really have NO idea how to do invoice so i said i'll try my best)"..and when i stood up to go off, i saw the previous candidate's expected salary->$1700/mth..O.O...i guess that's a failure too then...the first one i didn't really care much cos it was way Too Hard(senoko area, no bus inside at all..and i was lost i got a taxi to bring me in insteadT-Tmy $$$) to get there and i kinda don't like the way it felt in the office..whereas for the second one i think it was a new branch or something cos it only had the person who interviewed me there, a small office room, but the most interesting thing is the company itself- a translation company whose clients include MOE, MOH, Dell...etc(that was all i could remember >.<)..i really wanna see how they work..but i haf a feelign that's not gonna happen..well, at least i m kindda working now..at a 'learning centre', which is bascially a child care centre, b'cos they need a extra helper for Dec, recommended by my sis's fren..the pay is really really T-T(low)..but it is very easy work after all...but i feel as if i could earn more if i get another job but..the point is i haf to GET it first..so even though i really feel like quiting that learning centre job, i'm so scared i'll end up jobless and regret my decision...well, i'm now focusing my search on the really really part-time section so that i'll not waste time and $$$ on the meaningless ones(perm)...i am really really $$$ hungry now...so many things to pay for...to save for...lol..and i've realyl wasted a lot of $$$ on the transport fees alone..i just don't know what to do now...well, i'll just kept going for interviews etc and contribute to the transport sector(or is it economy? i'm so braindead now..the right way was supposed to take 30-45 mins to reach home BUT i took the wrong direction and reached home only 2hrs...after i worked 3 hours at the centre today..so the time i spent to travel and the time i worked is almost the same..lol..but the transport fess this whole week is more than what i earned today and i'm gonna go out with my sis tmr T-T..no $$$ la~)..my sis thinks i'm too greedy when i told her that $6/hr is average outside..she said i'm trying to look for high pay jobs..i have no energy to argue(which will most likely lead to a quarrel) with her..oh well, better sleep now..have a long day tmr..work from 9-1, then go out with sis..i'll go dream of $$$ now..since thats about the only way i can get it for now..i'll get it, i must get it...anyways, please pardon any spelling, grammatic errors etc...i'm too tired to change it..btw, saw the X'mas deco in Orchard road(told you i told the worng direction..lol)...i felt nothing at all...k..better really sleep now...